springsteen

Monday, January 22, 2018
do you remember our first summer
how we climbed up to the attic while your parents watched reruns
and you showed me your favorite record.
you held it out to me with bony fingers,
said this is how music is s’posed to sound and I marveled at the magic,
needle carving vibrations into vinyl.

you closed your eyes as springsteen spoke to your soul.

you tapped the floor in rhythm;
the full moon and a million stars shone through the porthole window,
lit up your hair with a ghostly glow,
blond locks mingling with pale light
and it wasn’t just me and you anymore because you and music were one,
the damp dusty air thick with thunder road.

you carried around those words and notes like they were holy.

three summers later you met a girl;
she didn’t like springsteen like I did, always changed the radio without asking,
but she worshipped you, you told me.
after school you’d go to the attic.
I’d climbed the elm outside the porthole window, bring a new vinyl sometimes,
and you’d share your dreams unbridled.

then your dad’s truck sped down the driveway, gravel spinning, and didn’t come back.

your girlfriend called it off,
because you wouldn’t tell her the reason for your black eye, she said.
but that night I climbed the elm,
reenacted your favorite song,
and when you laughed, lips turning up in a sort of half-grin,
music poured out.

but we always knew springsteen would carry you away once you found the courage.

with the scream of harmonica
you found what you were looking for, redemption beneath a dirty hood
I didn’t know which was louder:
those living chords, the soundtrack to your life
or the screech of tires on tattered black asphalt and the clash of metal on metal,
seventeen summers gone in a blink.

the impulse of a dream evaporated in the miasma of blood and metal.

so I chased it for you,
six months late, graduation gown in rags in the back of this chevy,
windows down, springsteen thundering,
hightailing it out of this old tired town.
I left everything behind me except the lull of your song in my ears,
and I and the music were one.

the impulse of a dream riding fulfilled on waves of the night.

where do you take you denim?

16 comments:

  1. wow.... speechless at the way you write

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  2. every time i come here i am literally blown away o h m y

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  3. *sniffles* I-I'm not crying, you're crying.

    (You are a mesmerizing writer. Please don't ever stop.)

    xx Kenzie
    thoughts-of-a-fangirl.blogspot.com

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    1. ahh, kenzie, thank you. this means so much <3

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  4. Oh my goodness. I can vividly imagine each part. Wow. Wow. Wow.

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    1. ahhh thank you, laur!! that is such a compliment :)

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  5. wow, man. your writing is such a rare gem, MS. it's so DIFFERENT and just...aaahhhcchh i don't even have words to describe it. so gifted. so so gifted.

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  6. MARY.

    SHELLEY.

    REID.

    AGH.

    I say this with 100% honesty and certainty- you are one of my favorite writers on the planet. You never cease to completely blow me away with your words. Endlessly proud of you, friend. <3

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