Tuesday, August 11, 2015

The Constant in the Storm




There has been a battle going on inside myself lately. Sometimes this world seems too big, and sometimes it seems too small. Right now it feels awfully cramped. I have this feeling coming from somewhere -- perhaps inside of me, perhaps from the outside -- that keeps telling me that there's something bigger. Maybe a whole nation of people waiting to hear the Good News, or maybe a house with a front porch that wraps all the way around and looks off into the sunset, whether it be east or west.


There's a  some kind of longing coming from somewhere, and I can't find it. 

I've made a lot of decisions this summer, some that are sure to affect every aspect of the future, near and far. It will take time to see their effects, and I am so impatient. I suppose I'm impatient about everything. Will I grow into this life? Will my introverted heart finally find where it belongs? But maybe it already has. Maybe I just haven't noticed yet. I don't know. 

Life is a lot of maybes right now. It is times like these that force you to look somewhere besides yourself, for if you don't, you'll collapse from the inside out. Your uncertainties will eat you slowly and painfully and eventually take over every single aspect of your life. It is times like these when you cannot look to yourself  or friends or even family; they're human, too, and rarely do they have all the answers. In times like these you must look to the One who knows you better than yourelf: the Alpha and the Omega, the Lord Almighty. He knows where you're going, and even if you happen to be getting there awfully slowly, He still knows. He always will. That's the beauty of this wonderful relationship you have with Him if you're a believer: He is your everything. You are His and He is yours, and no one can ever change that.

--
P.S. My favorite book series, the Christy Miller series, is about a teenage girl. The series begins when Christy is fifteen, and she goes through all sorts of emotions. I used to wonder why, but now I know that fifteen is a very emotional age. Be prepared, ladies, and keep your eyes on God through it all.

8 comments :

  1. this was so encouraging ♥ I'm in the exact same boat. thanks for putting it into words and then turning it all back to Christ. I love your blog the more I read ^-^

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. I love your blog too, Olivia ❤️ I'm so glad you understand and that you stopped by!

      xoxo
      ms

      Delete
  2. I am finally not-busy enough to actually read and comment on your post! I'm super happy. :-) I love this--it's so true. Life can so often feel so cramped. Though, I think right now I'm on the other end...life seems way, way too big for me and I feel an awful lot like an ant in an ocean.

    Yet in the cramped spaces and in the oceans, God is the same God, and He is ever faithful. We are His and nothing can snatch us from His hand. Praise God!

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Thanks for commenting, Hannah Joy; it means the world ❤️ And I am so glad you're finding God in your ocean.

      xoxo
      ms

      Delete
  3. I love Christy Miller as well! I'm so glad we have this in common :) Aren't the books just the best?!?

    I understand the feeling you're having. Thank you for putting into words the hard parts of life and giving God the glory and encouraging others with your writing!

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. AHH I LOVE CHRISTY MILLER. And Todd is just... AMAZING.

      And thank you, Laur ❤️ You're the best

      Delete
  4. so so so encouraging and needed today.
    thank you<3

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Thanks for reading, Elisabeth ❤️ I'm so glad you were encouraged.

      xoxo
      ms

      Delete

As the old proverb goes, comments are good for the soul. Or something like that. So, comment away! Throw kindness out like confetti!