Confessions of a Recovering Fangirl:

Monday, July 13, 2015

 Back to School Part 2

     My story is simple, really:

     There was this band who everyone in my circles was raving about.
     "Oh, they're Australian, and their voices are beautiful. And they're so cute."
      I had a long history of not knowing what was currently on the radio. When it came to music, I had always lived in my own little world. I liked it. I was unique: A little Frank Sinatra, the old (old) country music, and a whole lot of Christian worship music. I was never into Taylor Swift or One Direction or anyone like that.

     Then High School came. I was starting to feel miserably uncool, so I decided to look into this band. I was a little shocked at first, that Christian friends of mine had been listening to them. But soon, I put away those thoughts and became completely engrossed with these four Australians.

     They became a huge idol in my life. I practically breathed their lyrics. It wasn't even so much that their music was bad; they had some songs that I most definitely wouldn't have recommended, but most of them were pretty clean. The main problem was how much I put into them. I dreamed about them, coveted band merch and concert tickets, and talked about them nonstop to my friends. I practically worshiped them.

     Guess what? They didn't satisfy. Not one song or band member ever made my heart full. Those four "idiots," who proudly call themselves that by the way, were living a reckless, meaningless, hopeless life. They had achieved their dream, but kept wanting more. They were unsatisfied, and so was I.

     This summer, at church camp, God convicted me of idolatry, otherwise known as fangirling.
     It wasn't an angry command filled with hatred, though; it was a plea to once again bow down to the One True King, to live life for Him, and to tell others to do the same.

     I'm still recovering. Not a day has gone by where one of their songs doesn't pop into my head and I start humming along. And more than once, I've texted my friends in desperateness asking them what to do. The other day, my friend texted me Ephesians 5:18b-21:

     "But be filled with the Spirit, addressing one another in psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, singing and making melody to the Lord with your heart,  giving thanks always and for everything to God the Father in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ,  submitting to one another out of reverence for Christ."

     What does this have to do with going back to school, you ask.

     My message is this:
     Don't get roped into worldly passions. Live for the One who gave you the ability to breathe and sing, and use that breath to praise Him.

     I'm not saying that you can't like a band and be a Christian at the same time. Some of my best friends still really like this band. I just want y'all to know that when you put other people above God in your life, you won't be satisfied. Mere people can't give you what God can give you.

     Maybe there will be a day when I can put on one of 5SOS's songs and sing along without turning into what I did before, but until then, I'm staying away from them. I wish I could forget everything I learned about them; I wish I could get their lyrics out of my head. God heals, though, and my recovering heart will be made new by His grace. Please, don't wait till church camp to remove idolatry from your life. Do it now. Give back to God all the time you can.


  1. I honestly agree with you.

    I've seen girls lose their minds over bands, singers, celebrities, and fictional characters. I've found myself behaving similarly. But I think there's a difference between having an interest in something and completely idolizing it. I think once you start putting those interests before God, then it becomes idolization.

    More people definently need to read this post--Confessions of a Former 5SOS Fam member :P

    (P.S. even I have to admit that "Amnesia" is a really good song though)

    O | Life as a Young Lady

    1. I totally get you! Teen girls put so much into boys and boybands. I wish I could convince them to put at least half as much into their relationship with God. He's what matters!

      Thanks for stopping by! I read your birthday post today. Happy belated birthday!
      (and yes, Amnesia does get stuck in your head:)

  2. This is a great post!! I was wondering, could you make a (middle) school advice post? It is nice to know that there are other Christian girls out there who go through the same struggles as me! Your blog has been a big inspiration to me. ;)
    Abigail Grace

    1. Abigail, I definitely will! It will be next on my list! I would love to spare you from all the unnecessary things I went through in middle school. I'm so glad I've been encouraging you. All glory to God!

  3. You don't understand how much this post has enlightened me. Obsessing over worldly figures and 'fangirling' over bands and singers- you are so right about what you've said, it does not satisfy.
    I'm not really sure how to tell you how much this post has helped my Christian well being already. It's like I can see now, where I couldn't see before, how wrong and idolizing it is to (like you said) practically worship other humans. Taylor Swift, One Republic, Ellie Goulding, whatever. Any of those. They should be so extremely unimportant to me. I want my focus to be on God.
    I am definitely following your blog, and I will be coming back for more, because you are an amazing writer.

    1. Tane, I am so, so glad you visited my blog!
      I never really thought of it as idolatry until camp, and I was so convicted and ashamed. Thank God that He forgives, though!
      I'm so glad you were encouraged; that's my goal for every reader who stops by.
      And thank you for the compliment :) You know, I'm not that good at writing when I try fiction, but when I write about the gospel and Jesus' love for me, I can never write enough. God's love is fueling my writing, and I think that's so cool!
      I really want to meet you now!



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